February 2012
18 posts
Valentine's Day
It sucks to know that the person I take interest in doesn’t even have the courtesy to say hi back to me in the hallway. Man, do I feel stupid. Rip my heart out and feed it to your chihuahua why don’t you?!
I celebrate my valentines day on tumblr. O yaw. I can feel the love.
I dare you.
I’ve always hated the litany of pleas whether playfully or seriously. Not dislike but actual hate. It agitates my solemnity. It takes advantage of my kindness. There’s a fine line between cute and straight up annoying. I’m sorry to lay it bare but I hold a very shrewd ideology for childishness. Don’t you dare try to be cute with me, I have a short temper to...
2 tags
Please don’t get used to me being there. I won’t be here for long so don’t get comfortable. Don’t feel complimented whenever I try to converse with you first; I know you feel elevated with every attempt I make to keep you interested. But, after a while, I’ll be the one not trying anymore. Would you miss that? See how it feels to not have me wrapped around your finger....
January 2012
7 posts
Sweet
What happened is in plain text.
What was in my mind is italicized.
I went jogging 3 months ago on Los Feliz just to relieve my mind. I looked through my ipod looking for a good song to get hyped up with and all of a sudden some random guy started jogging next to me. Crap! Did you just come out of the bushes?! We ran side by side for about 10 long blocks. Shit, this is a long jog… long jog ...
2012
I do not feel like creating new year’s resolutions when the year hasn’t even began. Holding goal resolutions is a whole lot different than setting them. I don’t expect much just because there is a different digit written at the end of the date; a new year is not a reset button. I will still have the same insecurities, the same issues, the same friends, the same family, just different digits to...
December 2011
4 posts
Oh yea, me too
Whenever I say something that makes you feel the need to say it back, don’t. If you really don’t feel that way, don’t fabricate your emotions towards me just because I might get upset knowing our feelings aren’t mutual. I don’t want to have all your “I miss you too’s” be based upon common courtesy than actuality. Either keep your words in...
No right
Every time you look at another girl, my self-esteem would lower. Every time you choose to go with your friends than stay with me, I wonder if I did something wrong. Every time you’ve got a problem I cannot fix, I take it to heart that I’d at least cheer you up. Every time our hands touch, my hands yearn to hold yours. With every little thing, my heart aches and seeks to be soothed with...
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“So we beat on, boats against the current, borne back ceaselessly into the past.”
– F. Scott Fitzgerald, The Great Gatsby
November 2011
4 posts
butterflies
Last night I could have sworn I could have flown with all the butterflies in my stomach. I thought I was floating on a cloud. I couldn’t fathom it all, it kept me up. My blankets and pillows could not suffice. They didn’t feel the same, they weren’t your arms, they weren’t you. The discrepancy between my sheets and you were ridiculous. I was restless. I was with the...
sense
Can you feel it? This sense of an omen to tear our relationship apart. We’re drifting apart. Can you feel the hiatus blooming between you and I? It’s metastasizing. Penetrating my mind like an inevitable unwanted premonition then slowly stabbing at my heart to permeate throughout my body. The sadness is already seeping through my fingertips every time we touch. There is an obvious ...
About me
Just a little bit.
1. I can live on soy milk, bread, and nutella
2. The Fresh Prince of Bel-Air will and always stay intact as my favorite show
3. I like to keep my packs of Chips Ahoy Chocolate Chip Cookies stored in my fridge
4. I envy those whom enjoy spicy foods
5. I like cold showers
6. I can throw a football around ALL day
7. Jogging is a hobby
8. I start to get jittery and nervous...
October 2011
8 posts
Wednesday
I ran into problems today, said good-bye to lethargy, said hello to responsibility, held on to happiness, let go of insecurities, ran away from infatuation, lost gravity, found intuition, and education stayed with me.
I lost something of great value today, both sentimental and expense. To say the least, it wasn’t mine, the responsibility was and it tears me to pieces to see that I have...
Excuse me.
Lately I’ve been blogging and using fb via phone and its really quite tedious since my phone is so hard to maneuver when I use the browser. Thank you for the messages, I’ve gone through them although I’m unable to answer them because, for some odd reason, the insertion point won’t show. I’ve also noticed the new bloggers that have taken notice of me, thank you. I will...
M.
Do not fabricate your alter issues with something you see as a flaw with in me. I have done nothing wrong and yet you have the audacity to nitpick at my insecurities while you’re on your bawling high. Just because you’ve got something to cry rivers about, it does not mean it’s the perfect time to recyle them with something else. Do not come to me asking me to be better with those...
for your own sake
I’m not saying we’re incompatible, it’s just that my short attention span and your lack in the ability to keep that attention will inevitably clash. I’m not saying you’re boring but, I am saying that you’re only entertaining to a certain extent. My needs are unsustainable and will always trump your efforts and what you have to offer, sorry. My advice: just stop.
On repeat.
I really have nothing to talk about nowadays. I’ve yet to fluctuate whether I should even be recording my bad days instead of my good days. Welp, I’m sorry about the gloomy weather.
September 2011
14 posts
tea
There was this boy at school, I thought he was your usual Mr. Popular. Naïve, assumed everything is to go his way or no way. Promiscuous, trifled through probably half of the female student body within the first semester. Provocative, probably had numerous maneuvers that guaranteed a ticket to any girls heart. I assumed he was also a list-maker, jotting down the name of all the cute girls at...
I initially had the intentions of writing what had happened today although, I still cant fathom what it felt like into words that would suffice.
I’ll post forgotten drafts for now.
good night
Once the lights went off, I finally realized how exhausted I was. My body automatically crept into bed.
My partner in drawing was sick today. He acted so different. Said things he usually never would, he was peculiarly grumpy, and his smile wasn’t the same. Drawing class wasn’t the same. We drew in silence, only spoke when asking to pass something. It was dreary, I wasn’t...
sorry
I don’t wanna seem like I’m bragging but, I had a wonderful day. That is all, good night.
thats it!
Imma do homework till I fall asleep.
I know what you’re thinking: that is practically the ghetto-est ‘sleeping pill’ out there Reanna, you a crack head.
cracka'jack
I haven’t had the need to vent lately. No, that’s a lie. Yes, I’ve been dejecting myself from venting. Whenever I start a post, I simply save it in my drafts (currently home to 63 posts collecting dust). I guess me staying shallow and ignorant for a while just caused me to implode. I also assume that my investmests made on my “ignorance is bliss” motto just retaliated...
This is one of those nights where sleep seems like the far corner of the Earth. One of those nights where I have intolerable thoughts that seem to be endless. One of those nights where I wish I could simply call someone that would listen and understand my unconscious late-night blabbering. Being emotionless and uncaring is a full time duty but I guess I just took an inevitable and unwanted break...